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Tick Tock Tick Tock

Our lives unwinding

Like the gears on a clock

Moments passing

Moments approaching

Tick Tock Tick Tock

Your time will come

This is it

This is your life

Do what you must

Before your last tick

And your last tock


Holy Templar

The number of religions on this Earth is quite staggering. Through the ages men and women have come to practice a multitude of faiths, each with the absolute conviction that they are the definitive religion. One thing is clear, only a few have survived the test of time. These are Hinduism, Islam, Christianity, Buddhism and there may be others. Buddhism isn’t supposed to be a religion but it has become one in certain countries.

But have you ever heard of Wicca and Satanism? These are just two of what I like to call ‘non-mainstream’ religions that are still alive and well. There is a Church of Wicca and people practice its teachings all the time. It has something to do with elements. Satanism on the other hand has to do with believing in the darker side of man, though it’s a lot more complicated than that. They have their own beliefs which obviously they believe.

Then let’s not forget Scientology and its biggest advocate, Tom Cruise. It’s somewhat scary when you watch his Scientology video and you can see that he has absolute faith in what he’s saying. But maybe to us it looks like he’s been brainwashed, but you can’t really judge until you read the basic text behind the entire religion or cult as some would call it.

A further area of concern with religion is in the fact that indoctrination is always used to keep membership. What is indoctrination?

“To instruct in a doctrine, principle, ideology, etc., esp. to imbue with a specific partisan or biased belief or point of view.” Taken from

Now the word biased might have you up in arms… but it could be biased in the right way. Still the word indoctrination has a negative ring to it.

Anyway I once told a friend of mine that all religions use indoctrination, namely with children. I said that it was wrong and that people should make up their own minds as to what religion they should follow. He replied “then who would ever follow a religion” and went on to say that it was ok to do so.

Personally I believe people should be able to come to conclusions freely and I highly disapprove of religious schools that drum messages in to kids. Why can’t children make up their own minds as to what faith to follow? Why must they have it drummed in? If religions are that good, why can’t we let people grow up and make their own choices?

My mother has often said when she is mad “you turned out this way because you don’t have a religion” and at other times “it’s not too late. You can still have a religion”. I just LOL at those. Yes, I am a terrible, terrible Godless person who has never been to a religious educational institute in my life. Therefore I am evil and clueless. I drift without enlightenment.

But what I find most hilarious are the people who have gone through the religious system their whole life, behave like absolute bastards and then have the nerve to holy book thump in my face. I find this highly irritating.

Even more fascinating is the way people just pick up a holy text and then proceed to interpret everything the way they want to thereby justifying whatever it is they are doing. Look no further than the crusades and terrorist groups such as the Taliban.

Religion revolves around faith. What is faith? To avoid selective interpretation I bring you all 6 out of 8 (the missing two being irrelevant) from

1. confidence or trust in a person or thing: faith in another’s ability.

2. belief that is not based on proof: He had faith that the hypothesis would be substantiated by fact.

3. belief in God or in the doctrines or teachings of religion: the firm faith of the Pilgrims.

4.belief in anything, as a code of ethics, standards of merit, etc.: to be of the same faith with someone concerning honesty.

5. a system of religious belief: the Christian faith; the Jewish faith.

8.Christian Theology. the trust in God and in His promises as made through Christ and the Scriptures by which humans are justified or saved.

I would select no.2 because there is no concrete irrefutable proof that will convince everyone of the existence of God. I also like the example about hypothesis because in that regard I have faith too though sometimes you are proved wrong. 4 is also good.

I can have faith in something, but I want to be damn sure before doing so. Once you put your faith in something it’s pretty much the end. Coming back from that is near impossible. I leave you with the Cruise scientology clip. Look at his eyes and you will see the conviction he has in his faith. He KNOWS that he is right. Is he insane or just a devout follower? That’s up to you to decide.


It’s a strange thing. Keep doing something and its much easier to keep doing it. But suddenly the moment you stop, the moment you begin to put it off till later, suddenly its begins to get harder and harder. The more you delay, the harder it is to get back in to it. It seems to hold true regardless of what you’re doing, whether its studying, exercising, writing or whatever else.

I suppose its just the body and the mind getting used to things as it eventually adapts. It all depends on the newness of the experience. A friend of mine once wanted to become a nude model, but she said she was kinda shy to start. So I said it’ll be weird the first few times but after that you’ll get used to it. And that’s pretty much the same story for just about anything that a person can do.

Unfortunately the same holds true for a lot of negative behaviours including killing. Seasoned killers don’t blink or think about killing too much. That’s one of the worst things about war, it trains a large number of people to become killers and get used to it on a regular basis. I suppose you can’t wait to see if the other guy is going to shoot first cos then you’ll be dead. Problems really do arise when soldiers are forced to return to civilian lifestyles.

Anyway it seems that if you really want to do something and I mean really… you just keep at it. Even though you suck at the start, the only way you become good at it is by continuously doing it over and over again and someday somewhere you’ll find that you’re no longer half bad at this. But if you look for perfection from the start, then you’ll never get there.


You know what the best thing about the relatively new Wolverine and the X-Men cartoon? It doesn’t piss all over the X-Men? What’s that you say? Piss all over the X-Men? Get out of here!

Well you see with the advent of Bryan Singers’ X-Men flick Wolverine came to the forefront as being the Man in the X-Men. In the cartoon and the comics Wolverine was just one of the team bringing in his own strengths and weaknesses. But in the movie due to directorial decisions, the focus was placed purely on Wolverine. There’s nothing wrong with this on its own, but when the others are pretty much place holders it sucks.

Cyclops has always been my favourite X-Man. Besides being the leader, in the cartoon and comics he does quite a bit especially in the fights. In the first movie he’s sidelined behind Wolverine as is everyone else. In the second he disappears in to the ‘writer’s closet’ at the start of the film only to re-emerge at the end.  In the third he dies in the first five minutes. That’s what you call being pissed on. Fine you hate Cyclops. What about Rogue? She’s next to useless as is Storm. Jean Gray? Xavier? They’re all just hopeless before Wolverine shows up.

So back to the new cartoon, how do they shake things up? First they remove Jean Gray and Xavier (they are still there in the plot). This creates an angry, trigger happy, out of control Cyclops. They bring in Emma Frost to fill in the gap. Wolverine is forced to lead. Nightcrawler does a lot. As does Gambit, Rogue, Storm, Archangel, Beast, Shadow Cat and Ice Man (he didn’t do jack in the movie!). That’s good because each of these characters has  a loyal following that says he or she is the best X-Man.

In that regard Wolverine Origins was good. It focused on Wolverine and has some other characters showing up, all of whom at least did something for their limited screen time. There was talk of a Magneto movie, but that’s since been shelved and instead they’re re-telling the X-Men again. Let’s hope this time it’s about everyone and not just Wolverine.

Dark Knight

"Dark Knight" by Thomas F Abrahamsson


I will watch over you, through the darkness

I will come for you, wherever you be

I will go through hell and back for you

I will run the gauntlet, journey the seas

I will come to your aid in your time of need

There is no choice before me

For I am your slave… for now and forever

and you own me.

J'Taime by Amna A. Al-Thani

So she says. I don’t believe her. She barely knows me so how can it possibly be true?

I say… “I don’t believe you”. She says “You don’t have to believe it but I still feel that way”.

I say… “You barely even know me. It takes time.” She says “Whether its a short time or a long time it doesn’t change the way I feel”

I just don’t buy it. This just can’t be. It has to be a fun game which she assures me it’s not. She’s a nice person, I like talking to her. But do I feel anything toward her? How could I? I barely know her. I have to admit I get a little alarmed when she keeps repeating it. It’s only been 3 weeks.

Somehow I feel that if she did something stupid because she’s purportedly in love with me I would somehow be responsible. It’s like ‘true they did something stupid… but only because they love you’. How can you blame anyone for that?

This all sounds a little too far fetched. There has to be a catch right? Oh yeah… I forgot. She’s married and has a kid. She’s planning on getting divorced so she says. I don’t really want to get entangled in stuff like this. But because she’s married and has a kid sometimes I forget… she’s just a year older than me.

If I’m being ‘played’ for kicks… that’s ok. I’m immune to this kind of thing now.  If not… I really don’t know where this is all heading.

"I love you too honey!"

So you’ve been in a relationship for x amount of years now. Things used to be good and you couldn’t remember being happier. But then suddenly one day you wake up realize you’re not the same person anymore. Even scarier you realize that the relationship you’re in no longer works for you. The magic has long past and you’re still in it because… well just because you were in it yesterday.

Suddenly you think  maybe you should break away and start anew… but you’re afraid to let go of the past. But is there any point in holding on to something that is long gone? Just going through the motions when things are quite dead? Pretending things are the way they used to be and just holding on to memories? I would argue that the answer is a resounding no.

So many people stick in their marriages just because its convention and getting divorced, (especially for women) is a huge social stigma. Sure it’s not like that whole lets throw myself on my Husband’s flaming coffin kind of thing, but its sorta there.

But getting divorced is a huge ‘there’s something wrong with me. I can’t remain in a marriage. I am taboo.’ But really considering how hard it is to maintain a good relationship is it such a wonder that so many relationships fail? They fail on a regular basis… in fact we should have one of those clocks that says “x amounts of relationships have failed in the last 1 minute”.

I dunno. Personally I’d rather be dead than be stuck in a horrible relationship for life with someone I hate or even worse, someone I find ‘so so’. Why is ‘so so’ worse? Well quite simply you can’t even get the satisfaction of hating that person for being the slimeball that they are because maybe they are actually just plain nice if not ultimately boring. You’d just end up feel guilty.

Film Camera

It’s amazing what you can create with a simple little instrument like the camera. Sure they’ve evolved from their earliest days in to something significantly more complicated, but principally they remain the same.

Snap with a camera and you can see a snapshot of reality that you many not normally see. The better the camera the better the end result provided the person taking the shots has at least some slight skill with the camera.

The same principle applies to motion pictures and it was with some sadness that I watched the movie Wolfman. Why? Well quite simply because I realized that these guys were privy to some fantastic cameras combined with great lighting and pretty solid budget.

And yet the film had some piss poor cinematography throughout with scenes appearing as if they were quite randomly filmed. Absolutely no thought to where the camera was or how the actors were positioned. I was thinking about what kinds of things they could have done with the equipment.

In fact only at the end of the movie is there a scene in an antique store that is actually really interesting.

I’m completely against digital film. Why? Well traditional film is locked at 24fps that gives everything a truly cinematic look. Walk with a trench coat and at 24fps it looks graceful. Film at 30fps and it looks like your home video made with your camera. Toss in some moody lighting, and smoke and what you have is just truly beautiful. So when people waste such equipment its really sad.

Here are some scenes I thought were just wonderful uses of the film camera.

The Matrix

Dodge This

"Dodge This"

The Matrix is just filled with well thought out camera angles throughout the film. This shot is cool because its from the POV of the agent, looking out of the corner of his eye.

Star Wars Episode V: The Empire Strikes Back

Luke vs Vader

This movie is just got sci-fi written all over it. Miles above the other 5 Star Wars flicks it stands out on its own as an independent sci-fi flick. The scenes on Bespin are the best looking in the entire film with so much colour; blue, red, orange, black.

Blade Runner

Replicant on the Run

Replicant on the Run

Another sci-fi flick, Blade Runner has lots of thought put in to most of the scenes. Creating an overall image of sleaze is easier said then done, and a lot of new movies just clearly lack the effort.

There’s so many others but sadly I couldn’t find the pics. Oh well…

Work Harder... Support the Rich!

One of the worst feelings ever in my entire life was having to write. What’s that you say? What’s wrong with writing? Well nothing of course… until you consider the fact that I was forced to write for a living. Churning piece after piece with inadequate time to actually write properly. What was I writing? Articles for Article marketing.

What’s so bad about it? Well you just get to write 300 words about a host of destinations (If you’re in the travel industry) by browsing the net and essentially paraphrasing what other people have written. If you do take the time out to write a really good and well researched article… well you’re not even going to get the credit for it.

And then you’ve got the automatic formula for me to stop writing properly, and start churning out articles by the bucketload. Open doc, type, type, type, close. Rinse. Repeat. The entire experience becomes somewhat akin to working in a mine. Instead of breaking rocks with a pickaxe, you’re typing articles with your keyboard, but the feeling is similar. At the end of the day, you’re pretty tired. You go home to rest only to come back the next day and do the same thing again and again.

I began to hate writing. But it’s only recently that I realized that doing that wasn’t writing at all. That was just soulless garbage being churned out to meet corporate objectives and the bottom line.  It became a clear cut case of quantity over quality.

If you’re thinking 300 words doesn’t seem like much… well it isn’t, but that’s also the problem. You see you can’t really write about anything in so few words without taking the time to actually write a lot more and cut it down to spec. That’s hard. That’s why assignments and stuff sometimes have a strict word limit because you’re expected to present your idea succinctly. It also prevents copy-paste jobs.

After over year or so of writing that stuff I’d really had enough. I seriously just burnt out. Anyway after writing in other places I’ve decided I’m never going to stop writing. I just don’t want it to become a scenario of churning it out because then it becomes hell.

The Chorus from the song without music as always. Yeah I should probably do an entire song one of these days…

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